Differences

This shows you the differences between two versions of the page.

--- user:paulinko [2019/05/10 09:29] – Paulinko
+++ user:paulinko [2019/08/04 10:48] – Paulinko
@@ Line 1: / Line 1: @@
 <markdown>
 ![](https://forum.audiob.us/uploads/editor/1c/nb0jvlk0lnk8.jpeg "")
 #Paulinko
 I've been a member of the Audiobus forum since the beginning. Contributing wiki entries about what I've learned here and in my musical exploration allows me to share that knowledge.
-##Wikifesto
+At one point the Audiobus website had a problem logging users in with Google so I had to create a new account **@InfoCheck**. About 1/5 of my posts were under Paulinko and the rest were InfoCheck. I’m only using Paulinko for the wiki because I can’t login to the wiki with my InfoCheck account. My other musical online based identity is the PLU Collective named in honor of a friend who passed away from cancer a couple of years ago.
-* I was so excited by the prospect of geting a wiki for the Audiobus forum (this is a euphemism for mania) that I didn't bother to RTFM. Really even missed significant directions in the first paragraph.
-* Managed to learn enough to post lots of wiki pages by demonstrating all of the rookie mistakes.
+</markdown>
-* These errors were pointed out to me and I have managed to correct them. Still working on the conversion of local links to their correct format rather than an external format.
+<markdown>
-* Yes, I have serious problems though it was convenient in this particular case I was able to do things the same malformed way very consistently so fixing things up wasn't as hard as it otherwise would have been for me.
+####My friend DJ has passed away. Thank you for your thoughts and support.
-* Hopefully our defacto wiki administrator will encounter fewer prolific page churners who are strangers to instructions yet somehow manage to post prolifically.
+* Please help my friend to tell his story.
-* I thought it was important to share this spontaneous statement here as it will give those who interact with me on the wiki pages a chance to see where I'm coming from (sort of).
+* He has spent his life supporting people in the mental health system so they can work towards having a more fulfilling life.
-* At this point I think I'll watch my step more so I can avoid the stumbles so the wiki organizers don't freak out too much and flip this namespace.
+* He has saved my life several times.
-* If you check out my posting and updating of wiki pages during the  7-9th of May, 2019 you see there wasn’t a whole lot of sleep going on.
+* He's been on the front lines fighting with those who have PTSD including the survivors of Katrina during his first year as an LCSW.
-* I’m not attempting to be humorous or ironic, just to acknowledge my behavior effected other people, particularly the person trying to organize the wiki having to deal with me at the same time was stressful for them.
+* He has kidney and liver failure due to blood clots in his kidneys.
-* I try to insulate people from my extreme behaviors and at times I fail to do so.
+* Facing the prospect of having his life unexpectedly cut short due to the genetic hand he was dealt is overwhelming.
-* Thank you very much for your patience with me.
+* He’s a cancer survivor, is currently on dialysis, and his future is precarious.
+* We have been best friends since we met almost 25 years ago.
+* His spouse is especially distraught.
+* Any encouragement and support you can provide will be greatly appreciated.
+* Here’s how you can contribute financially to help: [DJ’s Go Fund Me](https://www.gofundme.com/trying-to-get-home-for-medical-treatments).
+</markdown>
+Help My Friend Tell His Story
+{{youtube>yMYgFrAArkc?large|App Overview}}
+{{tag> friend end_of_life dialysis speak_your_truth}}
+<markdown>
+##My Mental Health
+</markdown>
+:30 a.m. thoughts
+{{youtube>RYUi9bj9CWo?medium|App Overview}}
+Poor Judgment with Money
+{{youtube>xMW3Msqd21o?medium|App Overview}}
+<markdown>
+####Selfcare
+* Seek support from healthcare providers.
+* I'm not entitled to demand others conform to my perception of reality.
+* Try to be aware of and thank those who help me.
+* Monitor my health.
+* Use coping skills.
+* Acknowledge needs rather than deny, minimize or avoid them.
+* Seek appropriate help as soon as I perceive my judgment is poor.
+* Accept others have their own goals and expectations.
+* People may not meet my expectations. I may not meet theirs.
+* If what's going on is upsetting to me, I can go somewhere else.
+* Let others take responsibility for their actions.
+* Imposing my values on other people is a mistake on my part.
+* Monitoring, encouraging, or advising people can be an act of selfishness.
+* Live in harmnony with my values and value dissonance.
+* Seek to share my perspectives in a considerate manner.
+* Listen to and try to understand others.
+* Try to learn from my experiences.
+####Information About Me
+* I have experienced mental health symptoms for 40 years.
+* Bipolar disorder is my primary mental health diagnosis.
+* I hope people treat me based upon my behavior rather than my diagnosis.
+* Relative to others, I experience very little emotional guilt.
+* Do not seek to distress people. Being around me can be very stressful.
+####During Mania
+* I'm demanding.
+* Selfish
+* Irrational
+* Agressive
+* An all around pain in the ass.
+* People may take on too much responsibility for my behavior.
+* My judgment is poor, I lose touch with how I effect and affect others.
+####During Depression
+* I'll isolate and withdraw.
+####Positive Experiences
+* I don't get bored.
+* Mental health challenges are opportunities for improvement.
+* Group therapy helps me understand the needs of others.
+* Seeing myself reflected in others helps me to be more compassionate.
+* Many people have been very kind to me over the years.
+* I have benefitted from helping people.
+* Horrific experiences can become some of the most humorous memories.
+</markdown>
+{{https://forum.audiob.us/uploads/editor/td/icvjjjydg6v5.png?512x387}}
+<markdown>
+####Thank you.
+I appreciate the time you've taken to read about me.
 </markdown>
-{{youtube>e5W2-DcuePg?large|Paulinko's Wikifesto}}
+Peer Advocate of the Year
+{{youtube>Hr_X2AwjY9k?medium|Peer Advocate of the Year}}
-{{tag> POV wiki_author_tips YouTube}}
+{{tag> friendship end_of_life dialysis profile selfcare empathy mental_health bipolar}}